Contentment

I believe that Jesus has been teaching me some lessons recently. SO, I thought I'd share them with you. It might be more for my own good to share them, but I guess maybe it can be for your 'good' too. I'll try to be brief and to-the-point.



As some of you know, I never dreamed that I would live in NYC. It took me awhile to adjust to living here. This may be extreme, but I even think that the transition to living in the city could be viewed as a form of culture shock. Its really just so different from anywhere I've ever lived. Obviously, most people here speak English, so that was not a contributing factor to the difficult adjustment, but there were many other things that made the transition difficult for me. Anyways, I do now feel mostly adjusted and probably have for about the past 6 months or so.



Because I had a difficult time adjusting to life in the city, my mindset was 'when we move back to....', 'if we were living ______, this would be easier, better, etc.' I have realized that this is not the mindset that I want to live in, its not the mindset that Jesus wants me to live in either. Jesus has made my heart content. Admittedly, this will be a continued work in progress for me, as I'm sure I will still long for other places, but Jesus has shown me that I should pour my heart and life into the 'here and now'. I do not want to look back on my time here and not have much 'to show' for it.



I want to pour my heart, my soul, my desires, my whole self into each moment, moment by moment, that I am here. I want to be a better friend to those God has placed in my life. I want to be a better wife, supporting my husband in his work, his interests and his relationship with Jesus. I want to be a better Mom, always putting Jonah's needs before my own, raising him to love and serve Jesus. I also want to be content with my jobs. I am always thinking about other jobs I could be doing, or wish I was doing (all within the field of nursing/nurse practitioner-ing) but I have come to the place where I feel that God has given me these jobs for a reason, he has blessed me with employment, and I do not want to take that lightly. I want to be the best nurse, nurse practitioner, and nurse educator that I can be.



I realize these are lofty goals, but these are the desires of my heart. I want to live each moment to the best of my ability, glorifying Jesus in all I do. Living my life more in the present, rather than always looking to the future. Not that I won't keep the future in mind, but not letting it always be my focus.



Well, there you have it. I promise to post an update about Jonah next time... and soon.